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An Epilogue to The Past, A Prologue to The Beginning



Every morning when I wake up and get out of bed, there are certain facts I may not always be aware of. Mainly, each day could bring anything. It could be my last, my best, my worst, my craziest, or my saddest. On this day, I could meet a person I think of every day for the rest of my life. My life could change drastically or it might not. I might crawl under my covers at night, failing to see the purpose in the past sixteen hours I spent out and about.

This past year has been many things. The last 365 days have impacted who I am and how I see this world, and so many things have changed. It’s been the best, the worst, the craziest, the saddest, the happiest, the most confusing series of days in my life.

There is a lot left to figure out, to deal with, to come to terms with; and deciding what to do with this blog is just one small part. For a number of reasons, I have considered giving up writing and deleting this blog. I can hardly do either. But as it appears, I will be putting writing on hold and eventually taking down all content from this blog.

As a sort of “good bye (for now)”, I am posting a twelve-part (hopefully twelve parts, we’ll see) “epilogue”, describing my last year and all the glorious (or not so glorious) things that came with it. Well, I’m actually not sharing my secrets – just mainly feelings. But they are very personal.

I hope you can relate to some of my feelings or that I may encourage you in some way. I will be posting the parts as they come – I am guessing every other day or so. Stay tuned!

If you had to describe your last twelve months in one word, what would it be? After much deliberation, I think mine is “intense.” 😀 Tell me yours in the comments!

Picking Up Projects


I am probably the most indecisive, undisciplined writer there is. Making up my mind about writing is impossible. I am very torn. I love writing and miss it very much, but the other side of me says I don’t have the time and there are more important things in life than writing stories that no one benefits from anyway.

Every now and then, I go back and read old things I have written. I started NaNoWriMo 2014, but quit about a quarter of the way into it. That was a big deal to me. Anyway, I actually really liked my story idea. In my humble opinion 😛 , I think it’s pretty cool. I got about 18k into it and then stopped. Here is the last bit I wrote:

I wanted us to stay alive.
I thought about the wish he gave me on the shooting star. I thought about our night together and how much we had thought we meant to each other and knew each other. I did know him now, but it wasn’t that way. It wasn’t the I-want-20-million-children-from-you way, or even that I needed him close. I needed love. And it wouldn’t have to be complicated.
I took a deep breath. “I hear them,” I said.

If I could only discipline myself to find a healthy balance between writing and life. I so easily obsess over things…

Have you ever “taken a break” from writing? What made you quit? What made you pick it up again? How do you balance writing and real life? I need advice. 🙂

Random Update


Hey everyone,

how goes it? I thought I’d say hey, since I have been rather quiet after having to quit NaNo. It was pretty sad to watch everyone get their word counts in and finally win, while I was busy with my school.

Things have been crazy. I haven’t been able to do much writing for fun, and I am not sure if that will change any time soon. Winter is my favorite time to write, and Christmas inspires me; but my mind’s sort of all over the place.

And I’ve fallen crazy in love. It’s complicated.

I hope to not entirely neglect this blog, but it’s not like anyone would miss me horrifically anyway. 😀

NaNoWriMo Update – I Quit


I tweeted about quitting this year’s NaNoWriMo, and it’s true.

I quit. I really didn’t want to. I didn’t want to be one of those people. But I figure continuing would make me more stupid than how stupid I look by quitting now.

Truth is, I have too little time, creativity, and motivation. I need to fix my priorities. I love writing, but there’s no room for it in my life right now. At least, not something as big as a novel. I’m sad about this — and many things. Heartbroken really.

I am not okay, but I will be. Thank you so much for all you people’s support. 🙂


NaNoWriMo Update II And Reacting to Death



Well, week two is as good as over. Things are rather crazy and I am two days behind; but I have decided to write every day and not worry too much about word counts. I have a lot going on with school, so I am very busy – almost too busy – and focusing on writing has been hard.

An issue or question has come up. I am not good at writing my characters when they are reacting to death. They are in urgent situations and have little time to break down and cry for three days, but I find it hard to find a balance between grief and responsibility. If you know what I mean… That is, I wonder whether my characters’ reaction to the death of a loved one, for example, is believable.

Do you have any thoughts on this? Please share in the comments! It’d help a lot. How’s your month coming along?

NaNoWriMo Update I



How’s everyone’s November going? As some of you may remember, I am a NaNoWriMo participant. I was very nervous about this year, since I have a whole lot of life next to writing; and my motivation has had highs and lows of late.

My stats are moderate. I am a bit behind, but I have (high) hopes to catch up today.

The story (read about it HERE) is coming along all right. I skipped a scene with the intention of coming back to it, otherwise I try to write linear. Somehow, I wasn’t sure what to put in that scene, and it seemed a bit bland. Most scenes are shorter than expected. I am currently working on my fourteenth scene.

That’s my update. Must keep writing now — erm, and you know, class and stuff.



  1. Plan ahead.

I am undecided when it comes to pantsing and outlining; but for something as big as NaNoWriMo, I take no risks and plan ahead. When pantsing, I often have a cool story idea that runs dry after approximately 20,000 words, while outlining (usually) guarantees a win.

  1. Take enough time to plan ahead.

Last year, I outlined my NaNoWriMo novel ahead of time. Things didn’t go entirely as planned (hey, my main character hadn’t told me about the sweet ex-boyfriend she hadn’t let go of) but I passed the 50,000 word count and felt accomplished. The manuscript is, however, as valuable as a garbled collection of notes for a story idea. Clearly, I didn’t know enough about where I wanted the story to go and who I was dealing with.

  1. Keep to the point.

I know we’re trying to write 50,000 words and only have 30 days to do it. At times I get desperate just to get my daily word count in. I scribble nonsense, things that have nothing to do with the story and affect my draft in detrimental ways. Be strict with yourself and don’t allow yourself to give in to the temptation to stuff in conversation, descriptions, subplots that don’t further the story.

  1. Dare to lose.

Winning NaNoWriMo is an incredible feeling. It’s nice to say, “Yeah, I won. I was even nearly 10k over the goal.” Check your reaction when someone asks if they may look at your work. I don’t think NaNoWriMo should be used for simply getting words out there. You are more than that. The tricky thing is, your novel is not completed at the end of November. An average novel is 90-100k words. NaNoWriMo gives you the opportunity to get back into consistency, to get a foundation for your new work-in-progress. I love the community feeling of writing and being in it together.

But I challenge you to seriously consider quality over quantity. First drafts are always pretty crappy, but there’s normal crap and then there’s… well, you know. By crapping 50k into a Word document, you may just be making more work for yourself than necessary. Honestly, if I wanted to complete last year’s story idea, I would start from scratch because my NaNoWriMo draft is nearly useless.

Don’t win for winning’s sake. Win for yourself. Write for yourself even if it means losing. NaNoWriMo is a tool for your benefit. Decide how you can benefit from NaNoWriMo. How can it help you write a better novel?

  1. Finish it.

Don’t quit December 1. Finish what you start. Give yourself something to work with. Finish your first draft, set it aside, and then pick it up with fresh eyes and mind.

Don’t give up on your story. I’m sure it’s pretty awesome!